Update time-- or so I say, really it's just me trying (in vain?) to get my head on straight.



I'm holding my heart out but clutching it too
Feeling this sort of a love that we once knew
I'm calling this home when it's not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed

Standing on a darkened stage
Stumbling through the lines
Others have excuses
But I have my reasons why

We get distracted by the dreams of our own
But nobody's happy while feeling alone
And knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
We lean another ladder against the wrong wall

And climb high to the highest rung
To shake fists at the sky
While others have excuses
I have my reasons why
~Nickel Creek: Reasons Why~
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Last week I was in Utah with the awesome *Chajiko experiencing one of the best vacations I've had, ever. I traveled by myself, which turned out not as scary as one might expect, and while there I ate tons of awesome stuff, including real Japanese food and ice cream made with liquid nitrogen, saw an awesome 4th of July parade, hiked up a mountain, and rode horses! Not to mention the hours of talking and hanging out, and the meeting of her wonderful and amazing family. I can't wait to go out again, I really can't!

Now that I'm back in Ohio, however, I've sort of felt like things are piling up very quickly. I owe people arts (and have not forgotten, they will happen eventually), have arts of my own to produce, a website/webcomic to get up, and then, OH, RIGHT, I have to get some sort of job for the fall.

Both of the hopeful teaching jobs have fallen through, and while I may yet get hired by somewhere, I'm quickly losing hope and scrambling for a plan B. I could sub (which means I have to re-apply to all of those schools to include a sub position, oh joy), or possibly get some sort of art or teaching art-related job somewhere around here. If that happens, I will do my best to save money and take some classes to learn more about different fields of art (such as metalworking, practice with ceramics, wood-carving, etc, etc). What I'm trying to say is, I have no idea where things are going to take me at this point. I'm just trying to enjoy my summer and go with the flow. Things have become so uncertain, I've sort of given up trying to really plan or count on anything. Adaption, you know. 's how I do.



For all you awesome folk who care about my comic: I'm still working on it. I said July initially, but because of the whole website deal, it might be closer to August-- we'll see. It's really progressing nicely, and I can't wait to show everyone!

Alright, that's it from me, for now. Peace out!